emotions

The experience of seeing auras is a complex subject to unravel. I’ve seen auras around people since I was a child. It never occurred to me that others did not see auras as well. For example, when you walk outside and it’s a sunny day and the light is so bright that it makes you squint, do you run to other people and ask, “Do you see the light outside, does it make you close your eyes a little, is the light yellow in color to you”? You don’t ask these questions, you just assume that what you experience is what others are also experiencing.

My first inkling that I was seeing something different occurred in elementary school. We had been assigned to draw a picture of our home and family. While coloring each family member, I colored outside the lines portraying the colors I saw around each person. I also colored around the tree I had drawn, as I see the auras of plants and trees. When my picture was critiqued, I was told that I had not done a good job since I had colored outside of the lines. As an intuitive person with empathic abilities, I knew that the teacher was very displeased with my work, but I could not understand why. That brief conversation opened the door to my eventual understanding that others did not see colors around other people the way that I did. This was the beginning of my journey to read auras and determine what the colors and images that I saw in the auras meant.

While it is fairly easy to learn to see an aura, understanding what the colors and images surrounding the aura represent, is something entirely different all together. To discern what the colors and shapes mean around a person at a particular time requires intuition, practice and an understanding of the spiritual planes and fields around the body.

During the last year of his life, Edgar Cayce began work with his friend Thomas Sugrue to write a book about his work with auras. This book was intended to reveal a full discourse on auras and colors, including Cayce’s notes on how he learned via observation with his clients, the meanings of specific colors and shapes in the aura. Unfortunately, his health took a turn for the worse and Cayce died early that year in 1945.

Over the years, I’ve noticed that my clients ask many of the same questions about mediumship, the afterlife and their loved ones in spirit. And some of those questions are not always simple to answer! That’s because it’s a complicated subject but nonetheless, these are things that I’ve reflected on myself. So I thought I would share a few of my own personal insights with you – based on the most commonly asked questions I’ve received during private readings. 

As I share my personal beliefs, I’m also aware that there are many roads which lead to higher wisdom and you may find that you resonate with different concepts or core beliefs based on your own historical conversation. And that’s fine since most things in life are primarily based on our perceptions anyway.  I.e.: Is the glass half full – or half empty?  Of course when it comes to knowing what the afterlife is really like, the truth is that I won’t know for sure until I get there myself!  Meanwhile, here are the top four questions asked and my personal insights.

Q} Is she happy?

A} This is probably the most frequent question I’ve been asked! The simple answer is ‘yes’, I do believe they are happy, but I doubt that is it within the same context that we assess ‘happiness’ here in physical life. 

Think of the vast array of emotions we experience during physical life as ‘tools’. Without these tools, we would not be able to navigate through the drama and role-play of the physical system. ‘Happiness’ is just one of many different emotions, but how would we ever truly understand what happiness is if we didn’t also understand what sadness is?  Our emotions allow us to experience the polarities of life and in order to learn and grow in our experiences, we need a few tools (like emotions) in our toolbox. 

Experiencing the death of a spouse can leave us feeling very alone and somewhat helpless.  In the blink of an eye, we are left to handle all of life’s traumas on our own – without the person we are closest to and depend on the most. The world might no longer feel like a ‘safe place’, as we adjust to the vulnerable feeling of now taking on the responsibility of doing some of the tasks our spouse used to do. It can even leave us with ‘surreal feelings’ especially during the first few weeks. A surviving spouse might catch themselves doing things like cooking for two or picking up the phone to call them, in the same way they did when their spouse was alive, because reality hasn’t quite set in yet. So there is usually a period of feeling moderately disoriented and experiencing mixed emotions and as we work to process our grief, and honor their memory – all at the same time. 

Difficulty concentrating is very common after the death of someone close to you. It isn’t uncommon at all to go from feeling uninterested in anything and feeling lethargic to feeling angry with your spouse for dying. After all, they have left you on your own – feeling abandoned and overwhelmed. 

But the grief process is complicated and everyone experiences it differently, and unfortunately, there is no way to avoid it. Loss produces grief for all of us; it’s simply part of the human condition. It does usually ease up a little bit as time passes, although you will still have good days and bad days. There are, however, a few things that you could do that might help.

First, it’s very important to acknowledge any emotions you are feeling, whether they’re good, bad or ugly. It’s not unusual to feel things like anger or guilt; we sometimes even feel relieved at their passing – especially if our spouse was suffering. But when you don’t give yourself permission to feel a full range of emotions, you may not be able to move forward. It’s easy to trap feelings inside of our bodies, resulting in emotional and physical consequences, like [emotional] depression or becoming [physically] ill. So it’s very important that you acknowledge all emotions and express whatever you are feeling to others. If you find that difficult, you might try writing about it.  Some people find it very healing to keep a journal and it’s also common to ‘write a letter’ to your departed spouse; it can be a cleansing experience to express those feelings instead of holding so many emotions inside.